I think I made history yesterday by spending away $2000 away in one night. My goodness.. And I only bought a shower foam for myself.... (the rest were for a new washing machines, bills, bills, pants for my brother)

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Once again, left to my own devices.

When I hear that Summer has watched "Hitch" already, "cos you were so busy!", I was rather pissed. I was actually looking forward to watch it with her last Thursday, and it was cancelled because she had to work. No news of a re-arrangement of dates, and last night, she told me that she has already seen it. My immediate reaction was "WHAT!?"

She did not even bother to ask me why was I busy, and c'mon, there were 3 days before Thursday and Friday, and I hear nothing from her, and then she went to watch the show.

Dang. I guess I have to go on "strike" mode. There is no point planning movie outings with her anymore. What for, since I am no longer worth the wait?

I probably will go ahead with the Movie Meetup group. At this rate that I am going (waiting for the right people to be available for me), I will never get to watch any movie. I have already missed so many of them, I could cry.

Good Bye Good Times.

Very tired.. so many things to do.. argh.

I am suppose to write about my 2nd day.

But my mind is occupied with the to-do list and my argument with my father. I didn't know where did so much anger and frustration come from, I just stormed out and confronted him about the fish tank thing. After the hoo-ha, I realise I have mistaken the noise I heard earlier in the toilet. I thought he was arguing with my brother.

I realised I had been tricked by the evil one. Allowing myself to fall prey to emotions and feelings, and letting them guide my thoughts. I was so out of control. After that, with remorse, I prayed and ask God for forgiveness after I apologised to my father. I told God I didn't see it coming and I just blasted it out. I know this kind of things always happens when I am closer to God. I am in a mode where I know God is working in my life and I am responding to His guidance and directions.

As we get closer to God, the more the devil tries to twist and turn us so that we will lose our focus on God. The plan is rather simple, and almost effortless. I must admit, it's a constant struggle and fight to stay grounded with God's word. Because SA Tan will come and throw in distractions and I gotta stand firm.

God, please prevail when I need you the most. When you know my focus on you is being tested, please be with me and give me strength. I do not want to do anything that hurts people unknowingly just cause it eats into my feelings. I am allow to feel hurt, but I cannot let my feelings governs how I handle people. It is for you to take over. PLEASE DO SO.

Words on Work Day 2: Enjoyable, More, Fun, Responsibility, Communication.

My first day at work.

Wow.. the starting up of the Macintosh machines in the office really woke me up. I am in my new job! I was 15 mins early than Jo and Keith and upon reaching the office, when Keith start up his Mac, I thought I was back to reality again :) In fact, this morning, when I woke up much earlier (end up I took up my sister's regular time) just in case, it brought back memories of how both of us would fight over who gets to the toilet first, in my previous job. It's all coming back...

Everyone was rather nice, though they probably are rather polite to me since I am at my first day of work. I know this kinda awkwardness is bound to come, and I hope as time goes by, I will slowly blend in. Or probably because I was wearing quite an executive top and pants (thank goodness I forgo the thought of wearing a long sleeve and opt for a short sleeve instead!), they may think I am thinking that I am living the "shenton way girl" dream. haha... I think I will probably tone down my dressing bit by bit. Not so sudden that tomorrow when they see me, they will like.. huh..wah standards drop so fast.. ahahah.. yeah, I will be more relax on the dressing. I don't want to stress the others.. haha.. think comfort and protection from the air-con is the rule of thumb.

Hmm.. alot of things to do. Wow, I am even given the opportunity to air my views (I had none on my first day) on the proposals.. Gee.. I thought it would come, but wow.. not so fast man.. It's kinda fun and Sherry is such a good conceptual person.. ! My goodness, her ideas are very well thought of and very structured. Really ought to learn from her. Azman was nice.. he joked with me during the meeting. Ching is the gentle administrator, mebbe cos not familiar with me, so also very polite to me. The other designer guys are probably not familiar with me cos mebbe its the designer thing. Hopefully, the tension will come down as the days go by.

No matter how awkward I felt on my first day, the time seems to have passed by rather fast. Amazing. I really hope I will be useful tomorrow. I didn't answer any phone call today. I should do it tomorrow. Otherwise, I will look like an idiot sitting down there waiting for instructions :P

My first day of work. I think everyday I will give 5 words to describe what I feel every tiem I blog about my work. Should be a good gauge of my progress.

Today: Amazing. Thankful. Interesting. Aspiring. Exciting.

:)