The Last To Know

One of the manager who works with me returns to the office today from her overseas trip. Which was granted to her even when she has worked for under 3 months... But oh well, she was employed and engaged by the Boss so...

We were talking about some work and then she told me that the Boss had written an email to her to ask her that due to an internal restructuring, she will be be shifted to perform account servicing duties for the agency that I was previously in. Being her immediate superior, I should be informed of the change before the email is sent to her, right? Well, I wasn't.

I was surprised (who wouldn't?) to hear that, and was calm about it. At the same time, more people came into the room where we were meeting, and everyone exclaimed at the email that the Boss sent about a minute later.

The message announced the various meetings that will be held on Monday, and one of the items was a meeting of my agency with the manager of another agency.

"Why is That Manager (TM) in the meeting that involves your agency?" The Other Manager asked the both of us. "Well, because she will be taking care of both agency!" I exclaimed, with a whiff of sarcasm, and clapped my hands in mock glee.

The Other Manager (TOM) looked at me with disbelief, "You have tendered your resignation already?" "No, if I did, the whole world will know about it." She looked at me with another round of intensity in her eyes. "So what is going on?" I smiled.

In term of seniority, I am longer in the company than TM, and older than her. TOM know something is wrong with the way the email is written. Later on, when the other folks have left the room, The Other Manager (TOM) came to me again and asked again, "What is going on? Why is this arrangement about?"

Having known of the email that was sent to my manager earlier, I gave her a reply, still looking at my laptop, "Aiyah, he can do whatever he wants lah, I don't care anymore." I am obviously displeased with the way the way the news is being disseminated.

I am simply put off by the way that Boss is going structure his organisation. If he thinks that I am no longer suitable for my position and my role as the manager of the agency, he can jolly well let me know that I can leave. There is no need for him to do his 'restructuring' just to make himself look like he is benevolent to me.

Even when he said he has not given up on me, his actions, in many ways are telling me that he has. Just as with all the Singaporean men that I know, he doesn't want to say it, and is just waiting for me to give up. Just to affirm himself.

What happened today is the last straw. My agreement with him in our last conversation is that I will stay for 3 months to make things work. Half a month has gone, and he has not given me any reason to stay on for the next 2 months. He wrote to me in an email that he will downsize my pay to the amount where I started off with him, and in the meeting, 'was expecting' me to 'fight' for my pay.

I found no reason to fight. If that is the figure that he has derived from my contribution to the company for the past one and a half year, I respect that. I will not beg for more money, because I always believe being in a higher position than me, my superior knows what is my worth.

I am not going to beg. I have no reason to fight for someone who has lost his faith in me.

This is the end of the road. It's time to move on.

One Door Closing, And Another Door Opening

I am considering leaving the present job. Yes, even when the current situation is not looking good.

I have spoken to two person on separate occasions, and both of them told me that their companies are looking for people to fill up positions that I am currently holding... Or rather, juggling.

Need to dig up the resume and update some stuffs and start sending out letters... Or emails.

I am hopeful :D

I am back!

With the proliferation of social media, there is very little private space even on the internet, where anonousity used to be a precious commodity to own online.

This is the only solace I can find online. Cos I want to spill the beans. Haha...

So I shall start with some really subtle message today. I meant to put it on Facebook, but after realising that people don't use Notes to complain or murmur, I decided to write here.

I am reminded of two verses in the Bible today...

1 Corinthians 1:27
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.


2 Corinthians 4:7-9 (New International Version)
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Cam I hear an "Amen"?

Lookout, i am back! :D