Dangerous

I have a confession to make.

I am having a crush on a married man. Someone who is totally not my league of 'I will married kind'. Someone totally bad and no good for me.

It is the first time I felt that way towards a married man. Normally, I know they are out of bounds, and I will gauge my distance from them.

But this time... goodness me, I think I am allowing myself to even be seduced by him.

Yeah, it is that attractive. He is attractive. He makes me tingles everytime I talk to him.

He is not attractive in his looks, but he has that kind of charisma that oozes out even when I talk to him on MSN. It is truly the kind of delicious manliness that attracts me.

It doesn't help that he tells me that he finds me attractive too :S

We do some flirting online sometimes, and I always have to tell myself to watch what my words, cos I am always very close to confessing my attraction to him. Argh.

I have to constantly tell myself to wake up and not fantasize. And to keep my distance from him. Heck, I even met his wife and their daughter. I kept reminding myself: You don't want to destroy it.

I know he will treat me well if we are alone together. In many sense of the word. It's the kind of dangerous affair that satisfy the lonely heart and destroy the lives of others.

I remained seduced, even till now. But the line will have to be drawn, otherwise, I fear I will do things that even I myself will be surprised.

But he is sooo attractive and delicious in anyway, I mean, I would rather be seduced in this manner than to face a block of wood. He is so much more exciting!

:(

But the right thing to do is to stay away from fire. No matter how attractive it is.

:(