Very tired.. so many things to do.. argh.
I am suppose to write about my 2nd day.
But my mind is occupied with the to-do list and my argument with my father. I didn't know where did so much anger and frustration come from, I just stormed out and confronted him about the fish tank thing. After the hoo-ha, I realise I have mistaken the noise I heard earlier in the toilet. I thought he was arguing with my brother.
I realised I had been tricked by the evil one. Allowing myself to fall prey to emotions and feelings, and letting them guide my thoughts. I was so out of control. After that, with remorse, I prayed and ask God for forgiveness after I apologised to my father. I told God I didn't see it coming and I just blasted it out. I know this kind of things always happens when I am closer to God. I am in a mode where I know God is working in my life and I am responding to His guidance and directions.
As we get closer to God, the more the devil tries to twist and turn us so that we will lose our focus on God. The plan is rather simple, and almost effortless. I must admit, it's a constant struggle and fight to stay grounded with God's word. Because SA Tan will come and throw in distractions and I gotta stand firm.
God, please prevail when I need you the most. When you know my focus on you is being tested, please be with me and give me strength. I do not want to do anything that hurts people unknowingly just cause it eats into my feelings. I am allow to feel hurt, but I cannot let my feelings governs how I handle people. It is for you to take over. PLEASE DO SO.
Words on Work Day 2: Enjoyable, More, Fun, Responsibility, Communication.
I am suppose to write about my 2nd day.
But my mind is occupied with the to-do list and my argument with my father. I didn't know where did so much anger and frustration come from, I just stormed out and confronted him about the fish tank thing. After the hoo-ha, I realise I have mistaken the noise I heard earlier in the toilet. I thought he was arguing with my brother.
I realised I had been tricked by the evil one. Allowing myself to fall prey to emotions and feelings, and letting them guide my thoughts. I was so out of control. After that, with remorse, I prayed and ask God for forgiveness after I apologised to my father. I told God I didn't see it coming and I just blasted it out. I know this kind of things always happens when I am closer to God. I am in a mode where I know God is working in my life and I am responding to His guidance and directions.
As we get closer to God, the more the devil tries to twist and turn us so that we will lose our focus on God. The plan is rather simple, and almost effortless. I must admit, it's a constant struggle and fight to stay grounded with God's word. Because SA Tan will come and throw in distractions and I gotta stand firm.
God, please prevail when I need you the most. When you know my focus on you is being tested, please be with me and give me strength. I do not want to do anything that hurts people unknowingly just cause it eats into my feelings. I am allow to feel hurt, but I cannot let my feelings governs how I handle people. It is for you to take over. PLEASE DO SO.
Words on Work Day 2: Enjoyable, More, Fun, Responsibility, Communication.
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