Hey B.,

Thanks for prayin'...... Yes, I am feeling better technically, so to speak...
You read my blog, you probably can agar what I am going through now... I am now trying to stay as low profile as I can... Given that I cannot hide under certain circumstances, I will do my best in those, other than that, I would rather slip away quietly...

I truly feel better knowing that I can have my own space when nobody notices me. Acknowledging that I am not of vital importance in some group of people puts my view in the right perspective, and by doing that, I do not feel bitter if I am not include in group outings or whatever. I can revel in the fact that I have the freedom instead of being bounded to regular activities by a certain group of people who do things cos they need to do it. It unloads the unnecessary expectations from people and makes the equation : single and friendless = freedom.

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Hey B.,

Thanks for prayin'...... Yes, I am feeling better technically, so to speak...
You read my blog, you probably can agar what I am going through now... I am now trying to stay as low profile as I can... Given that I cannot hide under certain circumstances, I will do my best in those, other than that, I would rather slip away quietly...

My intention to stay away is to stay away from people hounding me.. Sad but true, but I feel that people are hounding me and won't let me go till I completed what they expected me to do.

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Hey B.,

Thanks for prayin'...... Yes, I am feeling better technically, so to speak...
You read my blog, you probably can agar what I am going through now... I am now trying to stay as low profile as I can... Given that I cannot hide under certain circumstances, I will do my best in those, other than that, I would rather slip away quietly...

I want you to know that your love for me are heartfelt and genuine. I know also that I am not alone in this quest to make a difference in church. I am sorry to say that at this point of the race, I have to stop the run and move to the side to rest.

Maybe I am selfish to just give up like that, cos I am letting my own agenda precedes the church's. I have given up the fight. I am rather hurt by the inconsideration of my needs by the church. However, it's something I had to do. I had to do it, otherwise, my spiritual, physical and emotional juice will be squeezed out for "the greater good".

You will not lose me, technically speaking, since we are all under one God. I'd just be somewhere not so near QBC, that's all.

Thanks for the invitation to Y..., I think now is not the time to think about it... At this point in time, socialising with people is something I try to do away as much as possible. Hence, I'd rather slip away quickly than to pretend to be happy and everything-is-ok.

Thanks for expressing your sincerity to want to walk alongside with me. I will remember this gentle gesture of you for remembering me and standing with me.

Much love,
J.