It dawned upon me. Our English Congregation is very cina-like in the way they handle and do things. Whereas the Chinese Congregation works their ministry in a much more liberated Western manner. They are more upfront, more active, more passionate, more excited about their ministries. The English Congregation seemed very comfortable in where they are and we are moving very slowly.

It's so strange... Well anyway, it will no longer by my concern soon.

I know I feel liberated after finalising my decision to leave everything behind. I feel much lighter, happier and not so irritated when nobody noticed me. In fact, I am very happy that people left me alone, that I am not seen by alot of people during and after service. At least now I acknowledge my place and position in church, and I'm not so bothered about being ignored or unnoticed.

As of today there are a total of 5 or 6 people who knows of my plan. People whom I know I can safely tell without worrying them spreading it like wild fire.

I can finally get myself ready to put everything behind me and move on with new beginnigs.

Can't wait for the year to end.

:)