Finally, I have decided
... on this day, 24th August 2005, Wednesday, I have decided to leave QBC next year.
It's not for the best reasons that I have made decision, it's a lousy one. But I have stopped growing in QBC, spiritually and emotionally. I'm not as excited as I used to be when I serve, and it's difficult for me to find affinity in the church.
I've been assumed to responsibilities that I cannot say No. Everything I do now is done because I am expected to do, not because I am passionate about it. I have no feelings to the things I do in church, no attachment whatsoever.
While giving out, nobody noticed that I need to be given as well. I feel like some invisible power that make things work, doing things magically, without emotions, without needs.
Yes, this is the day that I made the decision. Finally, it's time to put it to reality.
... on this day, 24th August 2005, Wednesday, I have decided to leave QBC next year.
It's not for the best reasons that I have made decision, it's a lousy one. But I have stopped growing in QBC, spiritually and emotionally. I'm not as excited as I used to be when I serve, and it's difficult for me to find affinity in the church.
I've been assumed to responsibilities that I cannot say No. Everything I do now is done because I am expected to do, not because I am passionate about it. I have no feelings to the things I do in church, no attachment whatsoever.
While giving out, nobody noticed that I need to be given as well. I feel like some invisible power that make things work, doing things magically, without emotions, without needs.
Yes, this is the day that I made the decision. Finally, it's time to put it to reality.
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