This morning, I felt like I was experiencing one of the 24 hrs of being one Jesus' disciples during his ministry...

I woke up and told God, can I don't go to 1st service? I'd go for the meeting at 11am for sure.. but can I don't go for service.. I am very tired.

Yesterday at 1pm, I met up with the 3 person for the worship issue. One insisted his point of view, the other was seeing it from both sides, yet another only came to know about the issue when emails starts to fly around. I was there... Maintaining the stand of the ministry.

He left in the middle of the meeting, not agreeing with us that we need to have sometime to re-assess the worship situation from the worship coordinator's perspective. We can't help it, but were sad. But we will go ahead anyway. I left the church feeling strange.. if only we know about this earlier... why wasn't it made known to us earlier?

I had been tired the whole of Saturday and had to rest. I plonk into my bed the moment I reached home. Didn't really sleep much though.

Had dinner with sister and nieces.. nice one.. chap ba lang.. after sending them off in a cab, I head to CW's house to have a chat, since he's back in town.

We talked about missions, the church, my situation, etc.. I remember Kim told me, and CW fully agree, that I should take a rest. But not leave the church. Now I am not to sure about that. As long as I am visible, I don't think I get the rest I want. Seriously.

From what I gather in 1pm and here up till 11.30pm, it seems to me that the church leaders are not listening to what the ground is hearing. And a whole lot of stuffs. I was told that I should talk to P.E. about the ground situation in the ministry, together with some of the leaders who are concerned.

Then I went home, hearing complaints from my sister that my elder sister didn't write the names on the cards as instructed. I was tired, and told her how would I know, you didn't even instruct me to do. Went to the toilet. Reflected on what I have been receiving for the past 12 hours.

I came out and ask her what needs to be done. Together with our blur mother, who still is not sure who to invite for church etc.. we sorted the invitation cards and cake vouchers till about 3am.

Orh mannnn... TIRED.

And this morning, I was really surpised at my wrestle with God. But of course, God won lah.

I went to the 11am meeting feeling tired and barely remember what I need to do. Thank God the rest knows what they need to do. Crammed in Room A (I'll never forget this!), we came out with the structure of what is to happen.

Then I remembered, that I forgot to put announcement in the bulletin for the children's Day carnival. Argh.

It's 12:04am. My week ahead is going to be crazy. Thank God, Pearl is ready to take over the remaining classes. Otherwise, I really peng san.

I can't wait for the year to end.