An Apology And A Thought About Love
To everyone who read and (maybe a lil) startled at the outburst I had at myself in the last post, and to those who were affected by me on MSN:
I am sorry to have caused you distressed, or even worried for me. It's over now. As in, the hormones have regulated themselves somewhat.
I am considering refraining myself from blogging about such things. But it will be tough, because blogging is the only avenue for me to release the PMS tension in a manner that will not hurt any human being emotionally.
So in the meantime, the blogging continues. Please bear with me. :|
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A thought struck me today (when do they not? :)
I have fears that if I am (ever) going to be in a relationship, there maybe one day, the loving will stop. As in, I will stop loving that person, or that person will stop loving me. I think that is the saddest thing that could happen in romantic love. Or for that matter, any kind of love.
I mean, I still believe in Love. When you gave a part of yourself, that is Love. People nowadays cuts Love off when they feel that they are not benefitting from the loving.
If I am ever going to be in love with someone, I don't want to stop the love. He may have some little habits that I do not agree with, but I will not allow myself to fall out with him just because of those things that do not matter for life. I want to love him for who he are, forever and ever. To quote Dorothy (Renée Zellweger) in Jerry Maguire "I love him! I love him for the man he wants to be. And I love him for the man he almost is. I love him!"I don't want to stop that love.
Which means I will have to give my love over and over again, unceasingly.
Is that ever possible? Will I have the stamina to continue to give, over and over again?
I guess if the bad points are negligible, loving a person forever is possible.
(I am having my little fantasy here... I am not going to talk about people who have obvious problems with keeping relationships, such as having affairs, abusive problems or other vices. And please do not ask the "what-ifs" of other situations such as permanent illness.).
Anyway, this is my thought for the day. Until the time comes for the litmus test.
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Actually, it is possible that love can be constant and consistent. This blog has snippets of it everywhere. It's not perfect love, but it's love that can be enjoyed by the people basking in it. It's not passionate love, just sweet love. Really sweet love.
I am sorry to have caused you distressed, or even worried for me. It's over now. As in, the hormones have regulated themselves somewhat.
I am considering refraining myself from blogging about such things. But it will be tough, because blogging is the only avenue for me to release the PMS tension in a manner that will not hurt any human being emotionally.
So in the meantime, the blogging continues. Please bear with me. :|
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
A thought struck me today (when do they not? :)
I have fears that if I am (ever) going to be in a relationship, there maybe one day, the loving will stop. As in, I will stop loving that person, or that person will stop loving me. I think that is the saddest thing that could happen in romantic love. Or for that matter, any kind of love.
I mean, I still believe in Love. When you gave a part of yourself, that is Love. People nowadays cuts Love off when they feel that they are not benefitting from the loving.
If I am ever going to be in love with someone, I don't want to stop the love. He may have some little habits that I do not agree with, but I will not allow myself to fall out with him just because of those things that do not matter for life. I want to love him for who he are, forever and ever. To quote Dorothy (Renée Zellweger) in Jerry Maguire "I love him! I love him for the man he wants to be. And I love him for the man he almost is. I love him!"I don't want to stop that love.
Which means I will have to give my love over and over again, unceasingly.
Is that ever possible? Will I have the stamina to continue to give, over and over again?
I guess if the bad points are negligible, loving a person forever is possible.
(I am having my little fantasy here... I am not going to talk about people who have obvious problems with keeping relationships, such as having affairs, abusive problems or other vices. And please do not ask the "what-ifs" of other situations such as permanent illness.).
Anyway, this is my thought for the day. Until the time comes for the litmus test.
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Actually, it is possible that love can be constant and consistent. This blog has snippets of it everywhere. It's not perfect love, but it's love that can be enjoyed by the people basking in it. It's not passionate love, just sweet love. Really sweet love.
4 Comments:
It's my thought that when you are with your one, the constant giving of love & daily decision to love will be made less difficult because that person will also be loving you completely. Perhaps not so much because of circumstances, but in spite of them.
It's a rare occurence these days, but I hope it happens to me someday - it sounds delightful!
Love is an odd reciprocal, recursive activity.
Don't worry too much about having the stamina to continue loving, but work hard at being lovable (often one and the same thing).
If you're feeling underappreciated, tell fast and tell early, while it's still a comment and not a gripe about the last 20 years.
Anon: Ur huh! I totally agree. I want to be delightfully in love as well! :)
lucian: Thank you for the wise advice. I too, believe that being lovable is something that we need to work on consistently. And the open communication part, I couldn't agree more. Now I need someone to practice these advice on ;)
A couple of oft-mentioned quotes come to mind...
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Love her not for her beauty - she is beautiful for she is loved.
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