Hello Everyone I Am Back
This is possibly one of my most seasoned trip to KL. There wasn't massive shopping like the previous time. There wasn't a mad rush to spend all my RM away before I leave the country. I could understand and converse with the locals in Malay (with the Malays/Indians) or Cantonese (Chinese).
Compared to the last trip I had back in January, there wasn't as much spiritual burden I lugged with me. I mean I could actually sense that I was a much happier person enjoy my time there, compared to the me then.
There were many thoughts to reflect on and conversations to ponders. One of the significant event we had was when I had requested my host to call up the friends whom we met through IRC (back in the days of IRC chatting) for a small gathering. Except for a couple friend who couldn't make it because one was out of town, and the other had to take care of her children who are sick, the rest turned up. All of them are now married with minimum 1 kid.
During the entire session, I did not feel that I was the odd one out, without "fruits". Instead, I found myself quietly heaving a sigh of relief that I am not married, with children. It seemed to have convinced me that I really do not need a marriage or children to verify my existence in this world. Somehow, I looked at these parents with kids, and for the first time, feel relieved *and thank GOD!* that I do not have to get myself into childbearing, child rearing, child raising... And all that tests that is required for a married person.
I told you I am a late bloomer...
So... It kinda ministered to one part of me that was very bothered with my why-am-I-still-single-at-this-age. It was what I need to get out of the self-pity hole.
But that only fix one part of the whole problem that I have. However, I am glad that a question has been answered.
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That being said, somehow I still feel some hormonal imbalance. Think the PMS is going to recur itself on me soon. Feeling moody and tempermental shall be the norm soon. I think it's already started itself. :(
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Oh, guess what?
I wore it :) Figured there wasn't any harm wearing it, so I wore it.
Friend and her mother both loved it. Didn't really change much on my view on it though. :)
Have a great rest of the week!
Sign,
the Blacky Narcotic Rabbit
Compared to the last trip I had back in January, there wasn't as much spiritual burden I lugged with me. I mean I could actually sense that I was a much happier person enjoy my time there, compared to the me then.
There were many thoughts to reflect on and conversations to ponders. One of the significant event we had was when I had requested my host to call up the friends whom we met through IRC (back in the days of IRC chatting) for a small gathering. Except for a couple friend who couldn't make it because one was out of town, and the other had to take care of her children who are sick, the rest turned up. All of them are now married with minimum 1 kid.
During the entire session, I did not feel that I was the odd one out, without "fruits". Instead, I found myself quietly heaving a sigh of relief that I am not married, with children. It seemed to have convinced me that I really do not need a marriage or children to verify my existence in this world. Somehow, I looked at these parents with kids, and for the first time, feel relieved *and thank GOD!* that I do not have to get myself into childbearing, child rearing, child raising... And all that tests that is required for a married person.
I told you I am a late bloomer...
So... It kinda ministered to one part of me that was very bothered with my why-am-I-still-single-at-this-age. It was what I need to get out of the self-pity hole.
But that only fix one part of the whole problem that I have. However, I am glad that a question has been answered.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
That being said, somehow I still feel some hormonal imbalance. Think the PMS is going to recur itself on me soon. Feeling moody and tempermental shall be the norm soon. I think it's already started itself. :(
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Oh, guess what?I wore it :) Figured there wasn't any harm wearing it, so I wore it.
Friend and her mother both loved it. Didn't really change much on my view on it though. :)
Have a great rest of the week!
Sign,
the Blacky Narcotic Rabbit
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