Tonight, Tonight...
... I felt like writing a post of jumbled up thoughts...
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This morning, as I was doing my regular ritual in the toilet, a thought floated by...
"What if the people around you have been lying to you all this time? What if, what they tell you aren't what they are? What if they weren't telling the truth, or half truths? Or quart-truth, or one-eight of the truth..."
It was a very Truman Show moment.
Of course, we know we lie at some point or another. Sometimes when we compliment another person, it was just to stall for time, or to get something out of that person. Sometimes, just to "entertain" that person.
I asked myself at the mirror, how would you react to that. "If that person intended to lie to me, there is nothing I can do, what. He/she chose to lie to save herself/himself, to hurt me, to give me false security, false hopes... All of which I have no control of. "
"It's not as if I have not been lied to in my life. Heck, even my mother lied to me. She promised me that she will buy me a calculator that can play the "shooting" game when I was in primary school if I do good in my maths. I never got my prize, because family was really poor then, when mom had to raise us up while dad continue to gamble money away. I can't control that, and certainly can't blame her for that. It's just... Don't give me false hopes or promises if you cannot fulfill them.
Like when he told me that he thinks that I might be 'the one'. "
There weren't any concluding thoughts thereafter, things were left just that.
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I need to read up more. It's a plan that I keep postponing. I have to read more, otherwise, my language skills will go to waste. It's bad that I don't even know the chinese word for "silicon" or "chip" during class tonight.
Things have to move on after this course is over. And move F A S T. Freelance, freelance!
Oh, I have to pay attention to my grammer skills. They are really bad.
Sorry if you have been sitting through them since you knew about this blog. I have resolved to make things better.
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I watched "The Prestige" last night. I watched it mainly for Hugh and Christian. Heh. Didn't really know what the show was about before I see it. Haha.
Arrhh.. Magic... And Hugh is the bad guy? Michael "that accent" Caine... as good as he has always been. Christian Bale is a much better actor than that Leonardo Cappuccino guy. He's just so good at portraying the emotions of human being. Very good.
Ok, no more spoilers. Go see the movie yourself :)
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This two weeks will be a crazy week of activities for me. I hope I keep my sanity.
God, please help!
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New cupcake discovery!
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"Joyce, have you lied seriously to the others too? C'mon, don't kid yourself..."
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This morning, as I was doing my regular ritual in the toilet, a thought floated by...
"What if the people around you have been lying to you all this time? What if, what they tell you aren't what they are? What if they weren't telling the truth, or half truths? Or quart-truth, or one-eight of the truth..."
It was a very Truman Show moment.
Of course, we know we lie at some point or another. Sometimes when we compliment another person, it was just to stall for time, or to get something out of that person. Sometimes, just to "entertain" that person.
I asked myself at the mirror, how would you react to that. "If that person intended to lie to me, there is nothing I can do, what. He/she chose to lie to save herself/himself, to hurt me, to give me false security, false hopes... All of which I have no control of. "
"It's not as if I have not been lied to in my life. Heck, even my mother lied to me. She promised me that she will buy me a calculator that can play the "shooting" game when I was in primary school if I do good in my maths. I never got my prize, because family was really poor then, when mom had to raise us up while dad continue to gamble money away. I can't control that, and certainly can't blame her for that. It's just... Don't give me false hopes or promises if you cannot fulfill them.
Like when he told me that he thinks that I might be 'the one'. "
There weren't any concluding thoughts thereafter, things were left just that.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I need to read up more. It's a plan that I keep postponing. I have to read more, otherwise, my language skills will go to waste. It's bad that I don't even know the chinese word for "silicon" or "chip" during class tonight.
Things have to move on after this course is over. And move F A S T. Freelance, freelance!
Oh, I have to pay attention to my grammer skills. They are really bad.
Sorry if you have been sitting through them since you knew about this blog. I have resolved to make things better.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
I watched "The Prestige" last night. I watched it mainly for Hugh and Christian. Heh. Didn't really know what the show was about before I see it. Haha.
Arrhh.. Magic... And Hugh is the bad guy? Michael "that accent" Caine... as good as he has always been. Christian Bale is a much better actor than that Leonardo Cappuccino guy. He's just so good at portraying the emotions of human being. Very good.
Ok, no more spoilers. Go see the movie yourself :)
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
This two weeks will be a crazy week of activities for me. I hope I keep my sanity.
God, please help!
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New cupcake discovery!
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"Joyce, have you lied seriously to the others too? C'mon, don't kid yourself..."
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