Today I step onto the weighing machine, I am 1kg less (but i was 2kg lesser 2 weeks ago!). Hmm... Fluctuating weights... When can it stablised so that I can go look for dresses?
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Aerobics Instructor commented after our step aerobics class that I can now manage to hold on throughout the entire session. I had earlier checked with her why I had short breaths and couldn't stay through. She said maybe it's stress or I need to build up my stamina. Well, I took her advise and build up my stamina by jogging twice a week, in addition to the aerobics class. Also I nabbed the stress bug at the head (in fact it was a minor depression that I was going through then) by letting myself break away from it.
My body benefitted from this form of release. I find more strength when I exercise, and I can handle temporary stresses better.
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Yesterday I suddenly had a thought of getting a tattoo. But of course, I am too chicken to have it done.
I couldn't go to sleep initially too.. Am thinking of how much of the ministry's planning should I plan for next year. Should I exempt Sarawak? Do I tell Ps.R that I am stepping down, since he wouldn't hv much time to "interogate" me cos he has got other meeting after seeing me? Would it be too short a notice to inform the key leaders that I am stepping down?
Anyway, I am very sure I want to step down. No amount of persuasion will be able to stop me. If they press me to stay, I'll have to say I may hv recurrence of the depression again. Last night was really abit of depression setting in again. Argh.
It just gets more depressing when I keep thinking about how little people know about me. Specifically church people. It's ironic to match who the church is what they do.
Yes, we cannot find the perfect church, as the saying goes. But shouldn't the church also know that it's not solely the responsibility of the member when things don't work out, and that the church should also play a part?
Alas. There is no perfect church.
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Aerobics Instructor commented after our step aerobics class that I can now manage to hold on throughout the entire session. I had earlier checked with her why I had short breaths and couldn't stay through. She said maybe it's stress or I need to build up my stamina. Well, I took her advise and build up my stamina by jogging twice a week, in addition to the aerobics class. Also I nabbed the stress bug at the head (in fact it was a minor depression that I was going through then) by letting myself break away from it.
My body benefitted from this form of release. I find more strength when I exercise, and I can handle temporary stresses better.
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Yesterday I suddenly had a thought of getting a tattoo. But of course, I am too chicken to have it done.
I couldn't go to sleep initially too.. Am thinking of how much of the ministry's planning should I plan for next year. Should I exempt Sarawak? Do I tell Ps.R that I am stepping down, since he wouldn't hv much time to "interogate" me cos he has got other meeting after seeing me? Would it be too short a notice to inform the key leaders that I am stepping down?
Anyway, I am very sure I want to step down. No amount of persuasion will be able to stop me. If they press me to stay, I'll have to say I may hv recurrence of the depression again. Last night was really abit of depression setting in again. Argh.
It just gets more depressing when I keep thinking about how little people know about me. Specifically church people. It's ironic to match who the church is what they do.
Yes, we cannot find the perfect church, as the saying goes. But shouldn't the church also know that it's not solely the responsibility of the member when things don't work out, and that the church should also play a part?
Alas. There is no perfect church.
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