I am going to take and run with it

 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
       and lean not on your own understanding;

 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
       and he will make your paths straight

---------------------------- Proverbs 3:5-6

This verse came to me when I was having breakfast this morning. Breakfast was two slices of bread coated with nutella-lookalike chocolate spread and coffee. As usual, I promptly said my grace and chew the bread. This morning, somehow, I thank God that he showed his love to me by providing this meal for me. Simple as it is, I am thankful for the provision. It's rather unusual for me to thank God for his love over breakfast.

As usual, as I eat, I ponder. I thought aboout God's love for me, and was reminded of the tough challenge last night to address the worship issue. I have always wondered why are Christian people so difficult. I know God is nowhere at fault, and so are the other people who are not related.

Then, I reviewed 1 of the 4 verses that I've sent to the printer for the Christmas Musical. I had a hard time on the last one, cos I've covered all grounds of salvation, and am desperate to include something over and above the Love, the Salvation and the Story.

Then DING!!!!! (a lightbulb flashes over my head in the middle of the night) Proverbs 3:5-6 came to mind. It was not what I was looking for at that time, but somehow, I was prompted to put that in. Something just won't let it go.

This morning, I realised, the verse was meant for me at this point in time. It's just one of those times when verses meant nothing to you the day before, but meant something significant later.

Here's my intepretation of the verses:

 5 Trust in the LORD

[ yes God, I really do... ]

with all your heart

[ Errr... alright.. I know now.. 100%... But God, I just don't think it's right.. You don't know these people, they really are a pain... ]

and lean not on your own understanding;

[ OH. WOW. "not my own understanding"? Gosh.. that is a real dent to my pride, I DO UNDERSTAND the situation, how can I not know, you mean I gotta give away my reliance on myself and to rely on you? And let you control the situation? That is really really very tough, I'm a control freak, I want to make sure everything goes well with my supervision!!! But you are right.. You know the situation MORE than I do. You are afterall, my God. ]

 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,

[ Ok.... I know... I have not been faithfully doing that in the things that I do... I'm sorry...]

and he will make your paths straight

[ That's your promise hor, God. I am going to take and run with it. ]

Then I felt much better. Bad scenarios are everywhere. We have our own preception of the situation, and most of the time, we preceived ourselves as the victims. But sometimes we failed to see that we can tap on Higher Power to stop the bad situation from getting us down. Or we failed to see that outside our problem, the solution is really ourselves.

The tension remains. But I can't please everyone. As long as I know that what I am doing is what I think is God wants me to do, I'll take risk as the pai lang (bad guy). I am not going to live under the shadow of fearing to displease men just because of what they think is right.

Really, if the situation turns out for the worse and if we lose someone who is insistent of their own ways, that's just too bad. I will not yield to pressure.

I will not yield to pressure.