I've been losing sleep for the past few days.. dunno why. Just can't sleep well. Either very tired and can't sleep through the night, or cannot get to sleep at all.

Also meantime, some things were revolving in my mind:

- Why were people looking at me at the dinner whenever i come in from the entrance or just to check out the no. of places filled up? I hope they looked at me cos I looked more pretty hahaha... i can't think of any other reason liao.. One thing, some of the relatives seldom see me, maybe they saw a BIG improvement in me since we last met?!

- Now that most of the major things have settled down, I am rethinking the decision I made earlier... I realised no matter how disappointed I am with the programmes of the church, the people in there still draws me back...

- I am really not a programmes person. I am a more people person. I cannot handle tasks and projects or programmes. I find that young people are more open to talk to me, compared to my peers of similar capacity.

- It's probably time I change ministry; maybe similar target group, but in a new manner.

I really need time to think and pray over this.