Shame On Me
I have just written the most heartfelt blog post of the week and the stupid email didn't registered the post. And why do I have to blog on the webmail? It's because the friggin' Blogger.com is down AGAIN!!
When are they going to get this stupid thingy fix??!! I am going to migrate to WORDPRESS liao!
Damn Blogger!!!
(For the record, Blogger was restored when I do this a 2nd time. I apologise for rude outbursts.)
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I was saying... That I like tonight's episode of GA. Shucks, need to recall what I wrote. They were all very spur of the moment feelings ya know... And now I have to replicate them. You have been warned. This is going to sound less than exciting.
The GA episode revisits the previous episodes and what happened with the 5 interns and their bosses/lovers/friends. I like the revisitation cos it brings back memory. Impressionable moments that I reacted in a less than natural me way. Impressionable moments and episodes that I did what I do when I see them. Yup. :'
As I :' I had to admit to myself that it's time I face the truth. I need a companion. I need a Special Someone. Someone to shower me with Love and Affection.
Yes, I am finally convinced, nonethless by a tv series, that I am not as strong as I want myself to be. Or I am not able to be as strong as I think I would be. I am still vulnerable as I am made. As any human being is made to be.
So shame on me who laughs at those girls who take their initiative to date the guys they like, or try anything they can do to get their attention.
Shame on me when I shun people who are incapable to do so.
Shame on me who proclaims "No man wun die" whenever I am told to go get a man for myself.
Shame on me.
I am just trying to stay in the denial zone and wean myself of anymore heartbreak possibility. Shame on me, I am building a wall for myself but laughing at people outside when I am trapped inside my own cold castle, surrounded by my own feel-good philosophies that are so pathetic in real life.
But what can I do?Love won't find me anywhere. I can't find Love anywhere.
And I thinkit I never will. Ever.
When are they going to get this stupid thingy fix??!! I am going to migrate to WORDPRESS liao!
(For the record, Blogger was restored when I do this a 2nd time. I apologise for rude outbursts.)
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I was saying... That I like tonight's episode of GA. Shucks, need to recall what I wrote. They were all very spur of the moment feelings ya know... And now I have to replicate them. You have been warned. This is going to sound less than exciting.
The GA episode revisits the previous episodes and what happened with the 5 interns and their bosses/lovers/friends. I like the revisitation cos it brings back memory. Impressionable moments that I reacted in a less than natural me way. Impressionable moments and episodes that I did what I do when I see them. Yup. :'
As I :' I had to admit to myself that it's time I face the truth. I need a companion. I need a Special Someone. Someone to shower me with Love and Affection.
Yes, I am finally convinced, nonethless by a tv series, that I am not as strong as I want myself to be. Or I am not able to be as strong as I think I would be. I am still vulnerable as I am made. As any human being is made to be.
So shame on me who laughs at those girls who take their initiative to date the guys they like, or try anything they can do to get their attention.
Shame on me when I shun people who are incapable to do so.
Shame on me who proclaims "No man wun die" whenever I am told to go get a man for myself.
Shame on me.
I am just trying to stay in the denial zone and wean myself of anymore heartbreak possibility. Shame on me, I am building a wall for myself but laughing at people outside when I am trapped inside my own cold castle, surrounded by my own feel-good philosophies that are so pathetic in real life.
But what can I do?
And I think
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