Woe Is Me?
I had 2 packets of M&Ms, a handful of Pringles Chips, one large serving of Mcdonald's French Fries, a handful of Apollo Chocolate Wafer for the past few days. Consider that an achievement for someone who hadn't snack in that capacity for months.
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My mind keep ringing the song "Deep" from Tanya Chua today. I thought about the what-ifs that are possible if I could have done certain things to keep him. But was quick to dismiss the thought.
He didn't even bother about you, Joyce.
Oh well, I guess I am just in this emotional transition period before my biological cycle. I will long for companionship. I will be envious of the lucky couples among my friends. I will be envy of the lucky couples who are not my friends. I will think that everyone is better off than me because they are couple-lised.
Yes, dear readers. I know being attached is not EVERYTHING. It's just that... Very difficult to explain to you if you are not in the same situation as me.
Not as old as me. Not as lonely. Not as forgotten.
I am actually in a depression mode. A woe-is-me mode. No, I won't jump down from any flat. I have no guts, and I don't want to be stupid.
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Do you guys ever remember having friends who were in your clout, and then they slowly become couples? Then there will be a phase where you guys know that they are just started out as a couple, but they don't want to come out clean. Or they are just started to be a couple, but are not behaving like one, and you had to create opportunities for them?
Saw a group like that today, on the train to the east side of the island. The friends of the guys told him, hey, got seat, got seat, you two should sit lah. The girl was shy and sat, and the guy had to be sat down. Gal kept quiet while the guy continue his conversations with his friends. It's a scene that depicts a man's successful conquer of a woman, and being egged on by his peers...
I don't know how to describe it, but the feeling as a friend of the lucky couple is beyond joy, I guess. Two people whom you know, coming together. That means good times together. Well, when they decided to include you, that is.
Hmmm... I don't know what I am trying to get at, hope you get my drift. Just thought I write this down.
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My mind keep ringing the song "Deep" from Tanya Chua today. I thought about the what-ifs that are possible if I could have done certain things to keep him. But was quick to dismiss the thought.
He didn't even bother about you, Joyce.
Oh well, I guess I am just in this emotional transition period before my biological cycle. I will long for companionship. I will be envious of the lucky couples among my friends. I will be envy of the lucky couples who are not my friends. I will think that everyone is better off than me because they are couple-lised.
Yes, dear readers. I know being attached is not EVERYTHING. It's just that... Very difficult to explain to you if you are not in the same situation as me.
Not as old as me. Not as lonely. Not as forgotten.
I am actually in a depression mode. A woe-is-me mode. No, I won't jump down from any flat. I have no guts, and I don't want to be stupid.
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Do you guys ever remember having friends who were in your clout, and then they slowly become couples? Then there will be a phase where you guys know that they are just started out as a couple, but they don't want to come out clean. Or they are just started to be a couple, but are not behaving like one, and you had to create opportunities for them?
Saw a group like that today, on the train to the east side of the island. The friends of the guys told him, hey, got seat, got seat, you two should sit lah. The girl was shy and sat, and the guy had to be sat down. Gal kept quiet while the guy continue his conversations with his friends. It's a scene that depicts a man's successful conquer of a woman, and being egged on by his peers...
I don't know how to describe it, but the feeling as a friend of the lucky couple is beyond joy, I guess. Two people whom you know, coming together. That means good times together. Well, when they decided to include you, that is.
Hmmm... I don't know what I am trying to get at, hope you get my drift. Just thought I write this down.
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