J, you have done it again. You have made yourself a fool once again.
What is it with these men?? When will they ever be ready for a relationship? If I can give myself out like that, why can't they? I have got nothing to lose, don't they feel the same way too?
Or maybe it's just a convenient excuse to indirectly tell me that they are just not interested in me. Oh, they are just too kind.
Oh well, I can save some money on gift that I intend to give him. Thank goodness I did not stop to shop for it just now after the movie.
Oh, all this sucks.
At least the LOVE ACTUALLY has more than made up for what I (think) I have lost. I went in to watch the movie with anticipation that my quest for love is waiting to be uncovered, to be discovered. I walked out of the movie with high hopes that I will also find my love actually.
And tonight, the scale of that has dropped to a -1. I can stop anticipating, and I can stop relating to him the way that I hope to build it up to be.
Nonetheless, I must stick to what I have promised myself, that is to remain friends with him no matter what. More so if, down the line, he decides that one of the other chatters will be his significant other, and it never was intended to be me.
I have to be strong. I must have an open heart. It probably was not mine to own in the first place. I am just pushing it. HAHAHA.
Oh well, at least I get to feel the pain once again. An again, I will probably let it pain until it drains out, then I will be able to resume the friendship. I am a veteran in this, I can deal with it again.
I guess I do not have the mood to watch Dare to Love Me, the french film. I have no basis to watch it anymore. I thought it will be inspiring for me as I anticipate a relationship that is about to come. There is no need for it anymore.
From now on, I shall work, and work, and work. Now that it is out of the way, I believe I should be able to concentrate on my work more.
Cheers to Unrequited Love! Cheers to the girls who were rejected! Cheers to new targets! CHEERS! CHEERS!
What is it with these men?? When will they ever be ready for a relationship? If I can give myself out like that, why can't they? I have got nothing to lose, don't they feel the same way too?
Or maybe it's just a convenient excuse to indirectly tell me that they are just not interested in me. Oh, they are just too kind.
Oh well, I can save some money on gift that I intend to give him. Thank goodness I did not stop to shop for it just now after the movie.
Oh, all this sucks.
At least the LOVE ACTUALLY has more than made up for what I (think) I have lost. I went in to watch the movie with anticipation that my quest for love is waiting to be uncovered, to be discovered. I walked out of the movie with high hopes that I will also find my love actually.
And tonight, the scale of that has dropped to a -1. I can stop anticipating, and I can stop relating to him the way that I hope to build it up to be.
Nonetheless, I must stick to what I have promised myself, that is to remain friends with him no matter what. More so if, down the line, he decides that one of the other chatters will be his significant other, and it never was intended to be me.
I have to be strong. I must have an open heart. It probably was not mine to own in the first place. I am just pushing it. HAHAHA.
Oh well, at least I get to feel the pain once again. An again, I will probably let it pain until it drains out, then I will be able to resume the friendship. I am a veteran in this, I can deal with it again.
I guess I do not have the mood to watch Dare to Love Me, the french film. I have no basis to watch it anymore. I thought it will be inspiring for me as I anticipate a relationship that is about to come. There is no need for it anymore.
From now on, I shall work, and work, and work. Now that it is out of the way, I believe I should be able to concentrate on my work more.
Cheers to Unrequited Love! Cheers to the girls who were rejected! Cheers to new targets! CHEERS! CHEERS!
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