*my heart is cringing*
*my nose is sour*
*my eyes are ....*
*my thoughts are all about him....*

In my mind, the song by A*Mei, "Ji De" (Remember) is replaying itself over and over again.. I know it has no relation to what i am feeling right now, but somehow, the tone of the song tug the strings of my heart, probably thats why it is playing over and over again..

I consider myself silly to be disrupted by such things, esp words spoken in IRC. But when i measured it up against what I see in real life of the people whom wrote those lines....

It has been clear that no matter what they say, a single person like me will always be a mockery of theirs. It doesnt matter if I am nice to you or not... I am simply a very good target to make fun of, to struck the contrast of the happiness of being 'couple-lised' as oppose to the "whole night irc" lifestyle of mine.

I am just their fun toy to make fun of when the topic comes to singlehood. I just feel that way, even if they don't mean it.

Or mebbe i think too much already....

Actually, when i look at what they say sometimes, it is really harmless and innocent... I had over-reacted at times... the chemicals in my body seem to explode when certain words are mentioned..

Too sensitive....

But then again, sometimes the words that were mentioned were really spoken by them without sparing a thought for the others who are reading or watching... they can be as happy as they can be, who can blame them? afterall, its their lives, not mine.

I just have to learn to handle things MORE objectively... I shouldn't have let my feelings got to the better of things.. I would have looked really stupid in real life if this kinda things happens offline. IRC has covered up everything for me conveniently. The rest is up to me.