Airing Some Fluff...

I wrote a whole lot of complaints about the coordinator for the bridal shower this Friday, but decided to clean everything up.

Eventually I conceded. There's no need to bad-mouth another person just by the things they do. Who knows, you may really enjoy yourself on Friday night. Meantime, I'd just obediently do the things as instructed, pray and look forward with anticipation.

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I used to be rather enthusiastic about bridal showers.

I thought this western practice is a nice way to celebrate with the bride, with get-together with close friends and get girly and stuffs. And I never figure out why some characters I watch on tv or in the movies loathe attending bridal showers.

I kinda feel that way this week. Somehow, I imagine my friends ooh-and-aahing as individual bridal shower gifts are opened, and the giver elaborates on why she gave the gift.

I grimace at the thought.

Then I thought maybe I am not the kind of person who would ooh-and-aah to great effect, just to make the activity look oh-so-sweet. In fact, I think it's a little fake. :P

So anyway, I'll be there anyhow. Maybe I would ooh-and-aah, despite my mind's protest.

I'll report that occurence here :)

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Movies watched over the holiday season (Fri - Tues):

1) It's A Wonderful Life
2) Santa Clause 2
3) Shallow Hal
4) Charlotte's Web
5) Curse of the Golden Flower
6) Night at The Museum

:)

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For this year's Christmas, I did not feel an ounce of self-pity being alone and single. Overall, I felt rather contented with my status, and was at peace. There were no "I shouldn't be with a group of people instead of cooping myself with a DVD", or "If only someone who ask if I'd like to join them". It's kinda strange, but nice, unlike other years.

I was exceptionally at peace spending the day on Christmas Eve at home doing my laundry and watching Shallo Hal. The movie bug crawled later and I ask a friend to join me for movie and just walk-walk Orchard Road. There were no crowd. Just a very wonderful feeling of being at peace.

Maybe I have passed that phase. Maybe the things that have happened this year has "maturised" me and made me realised that I need not feel pathetic about myself being companion-less during the festive season. Which is good actually, because I can't afford the newspaper report of the social escort the school teacher paid for to tide her over the festive season's loneliness, haha ($600 a pop for an escort! GOSH!)!

I am glad that I don't have, and don't need to, resort to that. I think my idea of self-worth is the highest this year, compare to the previous years.

I am valuable in the eyes of Christ and in my eyes. And nothing beats that. :)