Signs That I Have Gotten Over him More Or Less
twinkies says:
It was wrong of me to do the name-and-shame thing in this post earlier to a church that probably does not even have on its membership that particular person who does me wrong. The name of the church has been removed, because I do not think it was fair of me to drag the church into my personal problems.
My apologies to causing misunderstanding to you, dear readers.
1) I am "impregnated" with a 3 month old "baby".
I am gaining my kilos, silly! Now this is really bad, I had lost 3 kg when the damage was done in early Feb, now I have gained them back!
Just some holidays in between the healing process and the tummy is protruding like what. Disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!! And this is on top of my aerobics and jogging... Die liao...
2) I have healthy "hangout" plans with mour friends.
I used to wallowed in self pity after the incident. And thinks that the whole world does not understand how I feel because the little brew didn't make it to see the light. So I "hermitised" myself.
On Vesak Day, I was sun-tanning and enjoying myself in Sentosa, today went to pay respects to the those who have passed-on in my family, then went to eat for mother's day, tomorrow will be going to ECP...
Slowly breaking the shell.
3) I am getting new requests from Friendster messages... and responding to them!
Haha... Have realised, what the heck... Just make friends lor, won't die what... But will stay away from the flirting words lah... I find it hard to trust people nowadays, as I have confessed to one... But I idiot right, say I don't trust, then still respond to messages... Only God knows what is my intention... Brgh.
4) I went to see his profile and didn't feel that I was in the wrong.
He has changed his picture, and obviously, the background didn't look very "Australian" to me. Liar. Jerk. Bastard. Stinking Rat (he does perspire easily). No integrity. Shallow.
Anyway, he is still very active in Friendster, I think probably over 500 friends liao. I don't know exact number, cos he has been out of my friends list for a certain amount of time already.
Closing the History book.
5) Singing love songs in Karaoke do not trigger the hurted homones/emotions/thoughts anymore.
In fact, I sing even better than I used to do. And singing is a happy activity for me now, not a sad one. I am back to where I was before it happened.
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All these reason enough?
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Today during the tomb-sweeping event, on the bus journey, one of my cousins start to talk to my brother and I about people management, yadda yadda yada... I do have respect for this cousin and his siblings. So I give my utmost attention where possible.
After everything, he took brother and I into his mother's room and start to gave us talk about generating income as a consumer, I know what is he trying to get at. I feel uncomfortble. Brother is doing alot of body language to show that he can't wait to get out of the sales talk.
Now he is a very successful businessman. But what he thinks is good may not be what I want. I always have a default "No" switch when people tell me about MLM stuffs. This time is difficult cos it's a relative.
So I told my mother to thank his offer to send us home after everyone has left, so that we can escape more talk :P It's like thos nail parlour or beauty salon. They seem to know that I can be convinced through talking, so they talk alot to me and peppered it with compliments about me. Sometimes I get swayed, sometimes not. I have learnt that my mind must be firm to resist these sales talk.
I want to tell him straight that it's not that I am not interested, but I really do not want to do this kinda thing. But I can't bring myself to tell him. Weakness right? Why can't I, I have no idea. So i tend to avoid this kinda thing. But I am learning to tell myself that I can do it. I can say NO. Been pretty successful. But sometimes, it just can't work. Like today. But someday, I will tell him "No".
We do not belong to that bracket of consumers who spend $200 on washing powder or shampoos or soaps or cleansers every month. We are not who he is targeting that. And, finally, I do not want to do do it. Thank him for the time and close the chapter.
God, you will help me to be strong at this right?
It was wrong of me to do the name-and-shame thing in this post earlier to a church that probably does not even have on its membership that particular person who does me wrong. The name of the church has been removed, because I do not think it was fair of me to drag the church into my personal problems.
My apologies to causing misunderstanding to you, dear readers.
1) I am "impregnated" with a 3 month old "baby".
I am gaining my kilos, silly! Now this is really bad, I had lost 3 kg when the damage was done in early Feb, now I have gained them back!
Just some holidays in between the healing process and the tummy is protruding like what. Disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!! And this is on top of my aerobics and jogging... Die liao...
2) I have healthy "hangout" plans with mour friends.
I used to wallowed in self pity after the incident. And thinks that the whole world does not understand how I feel because the little brew didn't make it to see the light. So I "hermitised" myself.
On Vesak Day, I was sun-tanning and enjoying myself in Sentosa, today went to pay respects to the those who have passed-on in my family, then went to eat for mother's day, tomorrow will be going to ECP...
Slowly breaking the shell.
3) I am getting new requests from Friendster messages... and responding to them!
Haha... Have realised, what the heck... Just make friends lor, won't die what... But will stay away from the flirting words lah... I find it hard to trust people nowadays, as I have confessed to one... But I idiot right, say I don't trust, then still respond to messages... Only God knows what is my intention... Brgh.
4) I went to see his profile and didn't feel that I was in the wrong.
He has changed his picture, and obviously, the background didn't look very "Australian" to me. Liar. Jerk. Bastard. Stinking Rat (he does perspire easily). No integrity. Shallow.
Anyway, he is still very active in Friendster, I think probably over 500 friends liao. I don't know exact number, cos he has been out of my friends list for a certain amount of time already.
Closing the History book.
5) Singing love songs in Karaoke do not trigger the hurted homones/emotions/thoughts anymore.
In fact, I sing even better than I used to do. And singing is a happy activity for me now, not a sad one. I am back to where I was before it happened.
- - - - - - - - - - - -
All these reason enough?
- - - - - - - - - - - -
Today during the tomb-sweeping event, on the bus journey, one of my cousins start to talk to my brother and I about people management, yadda yadda yada... I do have respect for this cousin and his siblings. So I give my utmost attention where possible.
After everything, he took brother and I into his mother's room and start to gave us talk about generating income as a consumer, I know what is he trying to get at. I feel uncomfortble. Brother is doing alot of body language to show that he can't wait to get out of the sales talk.
Now he is a very successful businessman. But what he thinks is good may not be what I want. I always have a default "No" switch when people tell me about MLM stuffs. This time is difficult cos it's a relative.
So I told my mother to thank his offer to send us home after everyone has left, so that we can escape more talk :P It's like thos nail parlour or beauty salon. They seem to know that I can be convinced through talking, so they talk alot to me and peppered it with compliments about me. Sometimes I get swayed, sometimes not. I have learnt that my mind must be firm to resist these sales talk.
I want to tell him straight that it's not that I am not interested, but I really do not want to do this kinda thing. But I can't bring myself to tell him. Weakness right? Why can't I, I have no idea. So i tend to avoid this kinda thing. But I am learning to tell myself that I can do it. I can say NO. Been pretty successful. But sometimes, it just can't work. Like today. But someday, I will tell him "No".
We do not belong to that bracket of consumers who spend $200 on washing powder or shampoos or soaps or cleansers every month. We are not who he is targeting that. And, finally, I do not want to do do it. Thank him for the time and close the chapter.
God, you will help me to be strong at this right?
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