Like In A Dream
The past 2 days that is.
As some of you may know, my brain wasn't functioning properly and I was constantly in a dazed mood. There was this lethargy-tired-pressure-stucked-blocked state my mind/brain is going through. I was constantly geared towards falling into a sleep, my mind was really tense and I couldn't organise my thoughts properly. At one time I will be full of energy, and minutes later, I could go into a low energy state. It's all very strange. Everything seemed to be really dreamy and surreal. And I mean SURREAL. On top of that, I visit the toilet and make heavy deposits more often as usual for the past 2 days. That, I can diagnosed because I am starting to take the evening primrose my colleague had offered, some sort of adjustments the body is making.
But for all the surreal, tired, stucked and blocked mind, I have no answer for.
So I took to bed earlier for the past 2 days, slept at about 7 or 8 plus. I took the advise to pray before I sleep last night. The heaviness of the head was so intense, I told God that if I could cuddle in the arms of someone, it would probably take tonnes of the weight away. Then I fell asleep. There were a few dreams that occurred. Without giving too much details, my shoulder had a chance to rest on someone and at that moment, it felt really comforting.
This morning, when I woke up, I remembered that part of the dream, and some other parts. I was reminded of that Someone's shoulder I used to lean on. I wasn't feeling sad or whatever, just another round of wondering-whys things happened that way. Wondering why things were moving so well, fitted so well, and then PLONK! I was dropped.
Anyhow, I feel much better today. Better appetite, more energy, not so heavy-headed. Although morning choosing what to wear for the morning meeting was a challenge. But overall, I feel much better.
Maybe all this mental thing comes up as a result of built-up of events for the past month. I thought I had put them behind, but subconsciously, the remnants worked themselves together and go against my system. I don't know. Probably is so.
Does someone have an answer for me?
As some of you may know, my brain wasn't functioning properly and I was constantly in a dazed mood. There was this lethargy-tired-pressure-stucked-blocked state my mind/brain is going through. I was constantly geared towards falling into a sleep, my mind was really tense and I couldn't organise my thoughts properly. At one time I will be full of energy, and minutes later, I could go into a low energy state. It's all very strange. Everything seemed to be really dreamy and surreal. And I mean SURREAL. On top of that, I visit the toilet and make heavy deposits more often as usual for the past 2 days. That, I can diagnosed because I am starting to take the evening primrose my colleague had offered, some sort of adjustments the body is making.
But for all the surreal, tired, stucked and blocked mind, I have no answer for.
So I took to bed earlier for the past 2 days, slept at about 7 or 8 plus. I took the advise to pray before I sleep last night. The heaviness of the head was so intense, I told God that if I could cuddle in the arms of someone, it would probably take tonnes of the weight away. Then I fell asleep. There were a few dreams that occurred. Without giving too much details, my shoulder had a chance to rest on someone and at that moment, it felt really comforting.
This morning, when I woke up, I remembered that part of the dream, and some other parts. I was reminded of that Someone's shoulder I used to lean on. I wasn't feeling sad or whatever, just another round of wondering-whys things happened that way. Wondering why things were moving so well, fitted so well, and then PLONK! I was dropped.
Anyhow, I feel much better today. Better appetite, more energy, not so heavy-headed. Although morning choosing what to wear for the morning meeting was a challenge. But overall, I feel much better.
Maybe all this mental thing comes up as a result of built-up of events for the past month. I thought I had put them behind, but subconsciously, the remnants worked themselves together and go against my system. I don't know. Probably is so.
Does someone have an answer for me?
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