I Got It Out Today
Ok, my dear readers. Especially to those who have been following my previous entries of The Plan faithfully (haha.. as if there are alot of you). I want to declare to all of you, that
I have been DUMPED in The Plan.
Yeah, dumped. Think Ally Mcbeal being thrown into the big garbage truck-kinda dumped. All and all, in a month.
Took you by surprise eh? Haha... Yeah, I didn't expect it myself. I thought everything was plain sailing until I never hear from the jerk again after the 3rd day of CNY. SMS messages were ignored, calls were rejected.
After a great deal of sobbing to myself last night, I decided that today is the day I will not care about it anymore. I have done what I needed to do, and if that jerk turns out to be a bastard as he describes his predecessors, I can't help it.
I have decided that there is no point me wondering why he didn't reply to my messages or never call like he used to do in the past. No point wondering why did he not tell me why he never contact me again. No point staring into space and holding the mobile close in case he calls. Because my health is deteoriating because of all these stupid acts which he didn't even care at all.
Well, at least, thanks to him, I lost 3kg cos I lost my appetite for the past few days.
And it really didn't help that this person claims to be a believer, prayed with me over the phone, and worships in a mega church on the west of Singapore. It didn't help that when I asked God for boldness in The Plan, I was pretty sure that this was God's way of telling me "Here Child, take it, it's yours." My hopes were high, I was high. I thought finally, Significant Other is here.
I was heartbroken. I was literally staring into space the whole day during my MC thinking of nothing but him, and why did he do such a thing to me. An exact opposite of the person whom I known him as. Plus the fact that I was down with fever and a bad cough didn't help. I was mentally and emotionally drained.
The last straw came when I sms-ed him last evening and told him I really missed him and want to talk to him last night or today. And that we were suppose to meet for a City Harvest Delirious service at Expo.
There was no reply. So I cried myself to sleep. And this morning, I woke up and check the mobile. Still no messages.
Then I told myself, enough is enough. Move on. I deleted ALL his messages in my inbox. I am having a gathering with old friends today, I told myself. And I am going to enjoy it to the fullest, sans thoughts of the heartless jerk. I am not going to bring this burden with me.
True enough, I did enjoy myself over lunch. Told friends about me being dumped in a month, everybody empathised with me. They told me to 化悲愤为力量，eat as much as I can at the buffet, haha! We move on to other topics, had a great time catching up with one another. After that, follow a friend to Thomson road to buy flowers, and bought some flowers for myself. I told myself, after all this drama, I deserve to get these flowers to cheer myself up.
Later on, I went out with sisters and bros-in-law, nieces, mom and big aunty to Pearl Centre market for dinner. Went to shop around, then brought my nieces, together with sis, to watch fireworks at Riverside Angbao.
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I felt loved. I am still surrounded by people who loves me. It was a huge mistake to hung on to one person who has no sense of accountability or responsibility, when I have people who cared for me.
It felt good to know that I have made the right decision to put that one month affair behind me and move on. Thanks to jerks such as him, I'll come back stronger, and colder, and more independent. I will be more weary of men trying to know me, Christians included.
It's just hard to believe that someone whom I likened to a man of God would do such a thing. And thats when the post of It Was Just Too Perfect came in. Things are looking too perfect and I was getting worried something bad will come out. Alas, I was right.
So anyhow, I have finally got it out of my chest, and now I emerged a stronger woman. I will not let this get me down. All the better now I do not have to worry about the dirty things about getting into a relationship and the things that you need to do thereafter... Man, I was so closed. But Phew! It missed me. :) I got my freedom back!
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You wanna know who he is? Haha... I am very tempted to reveal to you who he is. But it's not so ethical to let you know lah, hor? :))
Going to sleep liao, no more late nights. That means my cough will be better in no time. Oh, but I would like to keep the 3 kgs off, hahaha!! :)
I have been DUMPED in The Plan.
Yeah, dumped. Think Ally Mcbeal being thrown into the big garbage truck-kinda dumped. All and all, in a month.
Took you by surprise eh? Haha... Yeah, I didn't expect it myself. I thought everything was plain sailing until I never hear from the jerk again after the 3rd day of CNY. SMS messages were ignored, calls were rejected.
After a great deal of sobbing to myself last night, I decided that today is the day I will not care about it anymore. I have done what I needed to do, and if that jerk turns out to be a bastard as he describes his predecessors, I can't help it.
I have decided that there is no point me wondering why he didn't reply to my messages or never call like he used to do in the past. No point wondering why did he not tell me why he never contact me again. No point staring into space and holding the mobile close in case he calls. Because my health is deteoriating because of all these stupid acts which he didn't even care at all.
Well, at least, thanks to him, I lost 3kg cos I lost my appetite for the past few days.
And it really didn't help that this person claims to be a believer, prayed with me over the phone, and worships in a mega church on the west of Singapore. It didn't help that when I asked God for boldness in The Plan, I was pretty sure that this was God's way of telling me "Here Child, take it, it's yours." My hopes were high, I was high. I thought finally, Significant Other is here.
I was heartbroken. I was literally staring into space the whole day during my MC thinking of nothing but him, and why did he do such a thing to me. An exact opposite of the person whom I known him as. Plus the fact that I was down with fever and a bad cough didn't help. I was mentally and emotionally drained.
The last straw came when I sms-ed him last evening and told him I really missed him and want to talk to him last night or today. And that we were suppose to meet for a City Harvest Delirious service at Expo.
There was no reply. So I cried myself to sleep. And this morning, I woke up and check the mobile. Still no messages.
Then I told myself, enough is enough. Move on. I deleted ALL his messages in my inbox. I am having a gathering with old friends today, I told myself. And I am going to enjoy it to the fullest, sans thoughts of the heartless jerk. I am not going to bring this burden with me.
True enough, I did enjoy myself over lunch. Told friends about me being dumped in a month, everybody empathised with me. They told me to 化悲愤为力量，eat as much as I can at the buffet, haha! We move on to other topics, had a great time catching up with one another. After that, follow a friend to Thomson road to buy flowers, and bought some flowers for myself. I told myself, after all this drama, I deserve to get these flowers to cheer myself up.
Later on, I went out with sisters and bros-in-law, nieces, mom and big aunty to Pearl Centre market for dinner. Went to shop around, then brought my nieces, together with sis, to watch fireworks at Riverside Angbao.
- - - - - - - - -
I felt loved. I am still surrounded by people who loves me. It was a huge mistake to hung on to one person who has no sense of accountability or responsibility, when I have people who cared for me.
It felt good to know that I have made the right decision to put that one month affair behind me and move on. Thanks to jerks such as him, I'll come back stronger, and colder, and more independent. I will be more weary of men trying to know me, Christians included.
It's just hard to believe that someone whom I likened to a man of God would do such a thing. And thats when the post of It Was Just Too Perfect came in. Things are looking too perfect and I was getting worried something bad will come out. Alas, I was right.
So anyhow, I have finally got it out of my chest, and now I emerged a stronger woman. I will not let this get me down. All the better now I do not have to worry about the dirty things about getting into a relationship and the things that you need to do thereafter... Man, I was so closed. But Phew! It missed me. :) I got my freedom back!
- - - - - - - -
You wanna know who he is? Haha... I am very tempted to reveal to you who he is. But it's not so ethical to let you know lah, hor? :))
Going to sleep liao, no more late nights. That means my cough will be better in no time. Oh, but I would like to keep the 3 kgs off, hahaha!! :)
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The big test will come next week. - D W
DW: Ahh... THAT. I've got it covered. I've got classes and homework assignments to do then. I'll even have a blog special for regular readers too. :) The sore has become a scar. Visible but painless.
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