After watching Michael Flatley's Lord of the Dance special on tv, I finally discover why I have been feeling all this queer reflections about me and my relationships and communication with my current batch of friends.
First of all, what did I discover about myself after watching the show? I love the arts, tremendously! I finally discover that art can come in any form: paintings, drama, plays, musicals are the most common ones, dance is another one. Looking at how MF and his troupe performing the dance was exhilerating.
Whenever the camera moves to and focus onto MF or his dancers feet, I am just so amazed at how this art has evolved. The dance has brought to my attention of God's creation. God created us to be able beings, to enjoy feet dancing, tapping.. what we do with it, really, glorifies His creation. It's simply breathtaking to see how, that without any talking at all, the dance performance provides an hr full of entertainment for the audience, including myself. It simply communicates vibrance, life, excitement, and the amazing glory of God's creativity. I think no words really can express what the excitement it brings, because only the audience can comprehend and understands all those aforementioned items, when they watch it. Before that, no amount of convincing can justify the excitment a Dance fan can relate a non-dance fan. You have to see it, feel it, to believe it.
So, how does this revelation has any relation to my recent reflection of the people I used to hang out with?
This period of buffer in btw jobs and people transitions made me reflect on the kind of lifestyle I really, really want to have. This is further affirmed by the documentary I watched late afternoon today (Wow, alot of tv-watching in one day!). It tells about the residents of a Red Cross home for the physically paralysed (or something liddat). How happy they are when their emotional needs are met by caring nurses, volunteers and family members. My heart still stirs whenever I see such things. I cannot ignore the fact that I am still concern for people who are less fortunate than I am, even though I am not exactly living a locally-approved level of lifestyle. I do not think I belong to the local genre of young adults who go drinking and clubbing, no matter how many times I follow them, and how many glasses of beer I can drink. I am just not like that.
Seeing the audience of the Dance enjoying the show also makes me sit up and think. I am really born in the wrong country. I would love to be soak with people who enjoy the essence of such art, yet, I am surrounded by people who only enjoys clubbing, drinking, movies, karaoke, eating.. It's lifestlye, I know, but, seems like their lack of concern for the arts is kinda weird to me.. I have tried to blend in, for the past 1 year and half, I have been doing it. But, I still do not feel comfortable going on doing it for long. It's just not me. Hence, I declined the offer to go drinking last Thursday.
In fact... I have decided to tell them all that I have discovered that I am not suitable for that kind of lifestyle. God has been speaking alot to me too, recently. I just have to tell them that, I want to stop the drinking and the clubbing, cos I am just not into it, after that year of experimenting. I am going to go after what God wants me to do, that is to live a life to glorify Him, to tell people about His salvation for them all, to live a quieter life. I will still do the regular stuffs like movies and karaoke. But I do not think I am keen on drinking anymore, or clubbing. I just can't find any satisfaction in these "pleasures", they have proved to be empty, as I have guess before I started the activities.
I am bracing myself that I may lose them. But I have to be honest, afterall, it's my life that I have to live with for the rest of my life. I wouldn't be happy living the lives that follows others, just to please them. It's time I live the life that I know is the life that is right for me. I will be writing an sms, mebbe direct them to my blog to tell them this decision. It will be sad if they do not see it the way I see it. I just hope that they will also thru it, reflect about their own life, and have a spiritual awakening.
It's going to be difficult, I have to do it still. It's the time to get a hold of what I am living for, and live what I believe in.
First of all, what did I discover about myself after watching the show? I love the arts, tremendously! I finally discover that art can come in any form: paintings, drama, plays, musicals are the most common ones, dance is another one. Looking at how MF and his troupe performing the dance was exhilerating.
Whenever the camera moves to and focus onto MF or his dancers feet, I am just so amazed at how this art has evolved. The dance has brought to my attention of God's creation. God created us to be able beings, to enjoy feet dancing, tapping.. what we do with it, really, glorifies His creation. It's simply breathtaking to see how, that without any talking at all, the dance performance provides an hr full of entertainment for the audience, including myself. It simply communicates vibrance, life, excitement, and the amazing glory of God's creativity. I think no words really can express what the excitement it brings, because only the audience can comprehend and understands all those aforementioned items, when they watch it. Before that, no amount of convincing can justify the excitment a Dance fan can relate a non-dance fan. You have to see it, feel it, to believe it.
So, how does this revelation has any relation to my recent reflection of the people I used to hang out with?
This period of buffer in btw jobs and people transitions made me reflect on the kind of lifestyle I really, really want to have. This is further affirmed by the documentary I watched late afternoon today (Wow, alot of tv-watching in one day!). It tells about the residents of a Red Cross home for the physically paralysed (or something liddat). How happy they are when their emotional needs are met by caring nurses, volunteers and family members. My heart still stirs whenever I see such things. I cannot ignore the fact that I am still concern for people who are less fortunate than I am, even though I am not exactly living a locally-approved level of lifestyle. I do not think I belong to the local genre of young adults who go drinking and clubbing, no matter how many times I follow them, and how many glasses of beer I can drink. I am just not like that.
Seeing the audience of the Dance enjoying the show also makes me sit up and think. I am really born in the wrong country. I would love to be soak with people who enjoy the essence of such art, yet, I am surrounded by people who only enjoys clubbing, drinking, movies, karaoke, eating.. It's lifestlye, I know, but, seems like their lack of concern for the arts is kinda weird to me.. I have tried to blend in, for the past 1 year and half, I have been doing it. But, I still do not feel comfortable going on doing it for long. It's just not me. Hence, I declined the offer to go drinking last Thursday.
In fact... I have decided to tell them all that I have discovered that I am not suitable for that kind of lifestyle. God has been speaking alot to me too, recently. I just have to tell them that, I want to stop the drinking and the clubbing, cos I am just not into it, after that year of experimenting. I am going to go after what God wants me to do, that is to live a life to glorify Him, to tell people about His salvation for them all, to live a quieter life. I will still do the regular stuffs like movies and karaoke. But I do not think I am keen on drinking anymore, or clubbing. I just can't find any satisfaction in these "pleasures", they have proved to be empty, as I have guess before I started the activities.
I am bracing myself that I may lose them. But I have to be honest, afterall, it's my life that I have to live with for the rest of my life. I wouldn't be happy living the lives that follows others, just to please them. It's time I live the life that I know is the life that is right for me. I will be writing an sms, mebbe direct them to my blog to tell them this decision. It will be sad if they do not see it the way I see it. I just hope that they will also thru it, reflect about their own life, and have a spiritual awakening.
It's going to be difficult, I have to do it still. It's the time to get a hold of what I am living for, and live what I believe in.
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