I Am Doing What I Feel Like Doing
I forgot to write that the pastor from PC called me at home yesterday. I was making pasta for brunch then, and wasn't concentrating on what she was talking about.
I think I sounded very cold to her. Almost unfeeling :P She could probably sound from the tone of my voice. I did tell her that I was making spaghetti for lunch, and while talking to her, I was handling the noodles and the cheese sauce that I had heated up, so I wasn't really concentrating on what she was talking about.
By the time we got off the phone, my spaghetti has lost it's warmth. Not nice :( Anyway, one of the things she asked me was was it something that she did that has caused me to stay away (cos I have been kinda "ignoring" her email, you see...). I told her, I can't think of any at the moment. Yeah, very vague answer right? Frankly, I could say alot of things. But my mind was on the spaghetti! I did tell her that my mind's made up, and I was "determine" (yeah, stupid word I used, so poltically uncorrect) that I am not going to return to PC anymore.
I am becoming unfeeling and cold. Actually I do not know how to react to certain groups of people from PC anymore. I mean, I still do keep in touch with some of them. But for the rest of the time, I want to stay away as far as possible. I even avoid the familiar faces if I see them on the street.
There is nothing to talk about anyway. It's always the default "How are you?" and my default "Er... I am ok." Followed by uncomfortable silence. And some small chat just for the sake of chatting. I'd rather skip that, thank you.
Then, just now I got a call from one of the guys in PC, saying that one of the pastor wants to meet up with me and two other, plus him next Thursday. I said ok, just meet up and eat what. Just go lor. But if they want something out of me, then sorry lor. I don't serve anymore. I have declared myself detached from that organisation. Don't try to get me back by asking me to serve. That is a huge deterrant. I will never never return. Not in any manner anyway.
So there. La La La. :)
I think I sounded very cold to her. Almost unfeeling :P She could probably sound from the tone of my voice. I did tell her that I was making spaghetti for lunch, and while talking to her, I was handling the noodles and the cheese sauce that I had heated up, so I wasn't really concentrating on what she was talking about.
By the time we got off the phone, my spaghetti has lost it's warmth. Not nice :( Anyway, one of the things she asked me was was it something that she did that has caused me to stay away (cos I have been kinda "ignoring" her email, you see...). I told her, I can't think of any at the moment. Yeah, very vague answer right? Frankly, I could say alot of things. But my mind was on the spaghetti! I did tell her that my mind's made up, and I was "determine" (yeah, stupid word I used, so poltically uncorrect) that I am not going to return to PC anymore.
I am becoming unfeeling and cold. Actually I do not know how to react to certain groups of people from PC anymore. I mean, I still do keep in touch with some of them. But for the rest of the time, I want to stay away as far as possible. I even avoid the familiar faces if I see them on the street.
There is nothing to talk about anyway. It's always the default "How are you?" and my default "Er... I am ok." Followed by uncomfortable silence. And some small chat just for the sake of chatting. I'd rather skip that, thank you.
Then, just now I got a call from one of the guys in PC, saying that one of the pastor wants to meet up with me and two other, plus him next Thursday. I said ok, just meet up and eat what. Just go lor. But if they want something out of me, then sorry lor. I don't serve anymore. I have declared myself detached from that organisation. Don't try to get me back by asking me to serve. That is a huge deterrant. I will never never return. Not in any manner anyway.
So there. La La La. :)
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