Strange How Things Are Linked

This morning on the way to work...

I know this month alot of people are celebrating their birthdays. Total of 4 sisters from church and my nieces' one tomorrow.

And also HIS. Somehow today, he surfaced in my thoughts. And I told myself, hmmm... since this month is his birthday, and I still keep him on my Friendster, I guess as a gesture, I should send him a birthday message or something via Friendster, nearing to that day.

I am not hoping to get anything out of this intention (if there is ever going to be any response anyway). There is no denying that his profile is more outstanding among the friendster profiles, for obvious reasons. It just occured to me that I am no longer so hung on for an answer from him of why things happened the way it happened. Maybe half of me wants to let him know that I am still alive and well despite of what happened. A quarter of me hopes to let him know that a bit of him still resides in my memory and my heart. An eighth of the mind hopes he would response, so that at least we can be cordial as friends. The last bit...

I guess I want to let him know that I have forgiven him of what he has done to me. I have thought of putting that in my profile or shoutouts, but I think it's too fake-ish to do that. I mean, seriously, that will only that I want to tell the whole world that I am gracious to forgive. A bit 自大, right?

So then, I check my email when I reached the office. One of the Friendster birthday reminders was his. And I was like... HUH?!?! *imagine a system dyfunction alert sound effect*

Hmmm... Anyway, it's still sometime away. Will see how it goes.


On the way home from work...

Saw a girl wearing a skin colour off-shoulder blouse walking towards my direction. No, I don't know her. It's just that her dressing linked up thoughts... Can someone with dark skin like her wear that colour? How do you determine what colour would look good on you? And some other thoughts, shucks, I forgot again. I remember there were 3 main threads of thoughts.

Haiz... Getting forgetful.


Wu Meng Da
He is the side-kick of Stephen Chow in most of his shows. He was relating (in a repeated telecast) of how Chow Yuen Fatt refuses to lend him money to pay off his gambling debts, and that he is greatful to that. Because he realised that if he agree to lend him, there will be a growing dependency on Chow to feed his addiction.

Sitting down there, I thought... This is true. Whenever we are dwelling in addiction or something that is not good for us, the best thing the people around us could do to support us, is NOT to help us feed our addictions, and not to give us go-ahead signs by fulfilling our addictive needs. That way, we will be able to get out of the vicious cycle and leave the bad habit for good.

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This week is 退隐江湖 season. This Saturday is Exam 1. I am not so scared of the exam, even though it's been a long time since I had one (Haha!). I am more worry about my homework. Each time I look at them, they always seem to be far from good, and there always seemed to be a better translation to a phrase that I cannot think of or find. Like that, how to pass-up?

Aiyah, dun care lah. Just do my very best and submit the rest to God. ;)