No Hope

It's sad but it's true.

After my dinner with a few of the ladies from QBC, I reflect on the conversations that we had about singles, men, married, perfect partner, QBC and people, on the way home, on the bus.

And the conclusion is that, frankly, I have lost hope. On men, on getting married, on QBC. That is what I have come to understand of during one of the Sunday sermons at FCBC.

(Last one of 3 point sermon is grow in faith. I re-listen to the sermon :)

On men: Even though they (the married one and the about to marry one) kept emphasising that there are good men around. And I kept saying no, because I have seen just about any kind of Singaporean men. They kept saying that there is no perfect men. Yes, I do understand that. *HOWEVER*, I am not asking for the sky. IMO, I think my requirement for a future partner is very simple. But the quality of local men... yucks.

(I am sorry to the good men out there whom I have yet to meet, but truly, your local counterparts really sucks big time.)

Anyway, I don't think I am hung up on local men. I really don't want to talk about them anymore. It's no longer worth dwelling on.

Then, no hope on the church. I think the church is too focus on getting things done. It has forgotten that God made us with flesh and blood and we are made with a heart and we have feelings and needs. Needs of the people can be delayed, so that goals and objectives can be achieved and reached.

Very sad. But... haiz.

Then personally, I don't dream or have focus on God as much. I am being honest. I have sorta lost it liao. All the busyness in the previous years have granted me excuses to delayed God.

I want to search and seek it back. How, I don't know... But somethings need to be done.